I feel like i'm getting a new kind of dysphoria. I really dont know how to label it, this is entirely new for me. I've been on estrogen for 8 months now and T blockers for roughly 2 years up to that point. In addition to being trans, I am also therian, or just a puppygirl, i honestly don't know. I'm incredibly comfortable in my identity, I'm just a bit of a dog and thats totally fine, but recently i've started getting this nostalgic melancholy type feeling whenever i go on walks with my actual dog. I've started to feel like something is just missing, like I'm physically out of my depth in a way that feels so hopeless because i can't correct this with surgery and I can't correct this with medication. It was different before i got on E, because i knew that i would eventually be able to get the changes that i want. but i can't just, physically be a dog. I've seen people on here saying "i miss my paws" and i feel like i really relate to that, and even though i don't have any specific memories from my past life/lives i know they're there. I know I was a dog. at least physically. My soul is an entirely different concept. I've recently started using it/it's for my pronouns because i've realized that i exist more than physically. I am an entity which inhabits a body. that body is of a trans girl. that entity has been in other bodies before. that entity misses some of those bodies and experiences, even though it doesn't remember specific details. I might start being more active on here, I don't know. i've been browsing and using this place for cute emojis for a while and only recently started stumbling upon the text posting. I recently got diagnosed with bpd and cptsd. it's been a relief honestly, since now i'm in a therapy program which specializes in bpd, and I've already done quite a bit of dbt work, which has helped. I think that my mom generally tends to believe that my therianthropy and non human identity is a risk factor and something which we need to "fix". I don't really want to fix it, I enjoy interacting with the world, and with my partner through the lens that i see things through. my emotional stability on the other hand is an entirely different story. that is absolutely something that can be worked on. But hey, I'll be getting my drivers license pretty soon, I've almost got all my hours to take my drivers test, and then i'll be able to have some more freedom in general. I think that'll help with all of this honestly. being able to drive and be on my own more, and go run around in an empty field or something, or go somewhere with my partner so she can throw a ball for me and we can play fetch. I think that would be nice. anyways, thats all for now. heres my little sign-off thing so people can tell who i am. if anyone wants to talk, just tag moonpup☾🐾 and hopefully i'll check this site enough to respond often. i would appreciate it if anyone was willing to share their own experiences with therian dysphoria (i don't know what to call it), and if there's anything anyone can think of that would help.